What the hell I was thinking?

For some time after realizing that I was the problem in my own life and that the relationships breaking around me were due to my behavior, I felt oppressed, humiliated, and angry. After a while, I began to feel a sense of optimism about the control I was gaining over myself, the challenges I conquered, and the evolution of my character in the short time since I started working on myself. Fighting against 30 years of habits and patterns is no easy task, but the more you know exactly what you're trying to change, the easier it becomes to overcome it and, in the best cases, transform it into a positive result. I won’t lie – there’s still that anger inside me, from the fact that no one helped me when I was younger, when it was crucial to build a strong and healthy character. Instead, I was left to navigate unclear motivations and punishments, playing hide and seek, and creating a false persona driven by fear—trying to fit in and hide my true self. Not having the support of family and f...

 It seems like no one saw the connection between  Nosferatu  and  Heretic , where the directors present us with their cases against and for blind faith in different but ultimately similar ways, letting us know how we see the world. What tipped me off about what Eggers is doing is that I read the book a couple of months before the trailer for  Nosferatu  came out. In the book, Lucy Westerna (here Anna), the best friend of Mina (essentially Ellen, played by Lily-Rose Depp), had to be beheaded. When Lucy became a victim of Dracula, she turned into a vampire, leading to her beheading. But here, we see Aaron Taylor-Johnson coughing blood and kissing her dead body, without awakening her or the kids. I thought about why Eggers made this choice—to not show another vampire—and realized that Dracula, or here Count Orlock, is actually the plague itself. For me, he was part unstoppable imagination, part powerful hallucinations and feaver, some mental illness, and the r...